VAE VICTUS
08-26-2005, 16:16
school starts monday and im chomping at the bit.my life starts again,but the flame isnt lit.i cant see whats in front of me,why do i keep looking back?why do my memories never seem to fade,i find that i cannot forget,cannot banish it from my mind.small reminders give a lot of free pain,that i caused it is plain.things will never be normal again,once shaken not the same.i have my own shame,my very owm pain,but why,whats the gain?i seem a fool,sitting on this stool,be questioned by my self.i ask the right questions ,and get the answers,and all that is left is despair.darkness,i dont even have my shadow as my companion,where there is no light everything is shadow.i listen to the slow songs,i push the button but no response,i am responsible for my own faults.i crack inside,am i falling apart,will my life be next,will it go down into the text,for all to see,for all to read,for all to judge,to reason,to mourn,to smile,to live,to die?i ask questions with no answer,find answers with no question,if i make the two fit truly i would be wise.croseus had an empire,and lost it,a king was thrown from his throne because he was thrown from his horse.thus ending the battle,and the war.but is there reason in life's daily tread,or is it all a fool's conjecture?is anything left but a grim spectre,of things which used to be?
i have lost someone very special to me because of my own stupidity.that was almost a year ago and it feels like it happened yesterday.tell me what you think.i dont write often,so im not really good,just had to get that off my chest. :shame:
i have lost someone very special to me because of my own stupidity.that was almost a year ago and it feels like it happened yesterday.tell me what you think.i dont write often,so im not really good,just had to get that off my chest. :shame: