Women and your selfimage? I will honestly give ya the benefit of my 50 years of life. If i look back on all the ladies i was `in love` with or had the `hots for`....where are they now? They are gone and yet i still live. We tend to live in the moment without perspective. Love and lust breed great emotion and complete blindness and stupidity. Been there and done that many times.
Your heart will want what it will. Doesnt mean she is right and good for you. You will be afraid that if she doesnt return your emotion and feelings that you will be humiliated and die. you will not.
First of all plz understand that your worth doesnt revolve around what a lady thinks of you.We all think so at times, but its hormones and emotion and longing. Look at yourself honestly and just be yourself. be confident in the person you are. Dont live or die on what she or anyone else thinks. Women actually love confident and self-assured men. Do what you think is right in life and dont let the rest bother you. if someone else doesnt like that about you then they can F off.
Dont play games or be false. if you do really like this girl then take a chance and talk to her ...just like she were another human being. Let her have a chance to get to know you. If it doesnt work then another girl will come along.
Yea people grow and change, always try and grow for the better. Its hard to have a clear direction in life early on. So dont let it worry you. just look at life and try and see what you like and what interests you. i didnt find my art until late in life. You dont know what it has in store.
At this point its important to find become a good person....in zen there is a term called `sameness in bearing`...meaning to just be yourself in any situation. Workon that. You`ll be fine bro....lemme know if ya need anything else.
Cheers.