Depression

[pevergreen]

Sorry for bringing this up again.

I'm having a really hard day today.
and i don't want to talk about it because its hard for me to.
even though i have everyone around me. being there for me. i feel like im by
myself. like nobody understands what i'm going through. and sometimes i just wish it
would all just go away. but it wont.
so i think to myself what's the easiest way out. and you know what happened the last
time i tried to find the easy way. i hope you will never try because the world would
lose such a wonderful person.
I'm not asking you to forget about me but right now i just need to be alone.
i need to sort out my own problems. before i do something i regret.
you have been the best thing that has ever happened to me. and i don't want to lose
you. but if i don't do this i'm afraid i'm going to end up regretting everything
which i don't want to.
perhaps after everything has finished when everything is not so complicated anymore
we could try again.
but for now. i need to look after myself. before anything else because if i don't
i'm afraid of what i will do.
i love you so much and i always will. you are the person i can always turn to.
and i hope we can still be friends. i will always be there for you. wether you need
someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on. and in hope you would do the same for
me. i would tell you this all in person but i am afraid that i would not be able to,
therefore not sharing my true feeling with you.
i never want to lose you. and i would do anything to change the way i am feeling
right now but i can't and this is why i have to end it.
i love you so much


kp. Xxx

In my experience with depression, she's at the lowest point. I had the moment, when I realised something needed to go, and after it went, it got better. Not immediately, but over time. I think she has got there. Sacrifices are needed, and I've been sacrificed. So be it.


(off topic for a moment, i love controlling emotions. I find that anger is super effective against sadness. Time to go get angry.)

[HoreTore]

Gah! Women.

[BigTex]

Gah! Women.

Gah! The inevitable conclusion.

Sorry to hear the update pever. But luckily there are plenty more out there.

My recomendations are for the 3 F's. Fight, Fun Under Cacie's Knickers, and Forget.

Oh and iron, lots of iron, maybe some chains to.. I've always found wieght lifting to be a release after a break up. Went for 6 hours straight on punching bags and wieghts after one.

[Caius]

Damn mate. It's hard to lose someone, we all know it(even me!).
Remember, you lost the love relationship, but you didn't lost the friendship. You should be keeping an eye on her, like it was said in this thread.
Now, how do you feel? Are you ok? Do you need to keep venting? It's a good idea to do that.

[pevergreen]

I doubt there will be a friendship.

Me? I seem to be under control for the moment.

[KukriKhan]

Sacrifices are needed, and I've been sacrificed. So be it.

Sorry, Man.

You've been doing the 'right thing' all along here.

Best wishes, and Regards.

[pevergreen]

because i dont have the feelings i did when we first whent out. there gone and if i try and hide that fact its going to kill me inside.

That makes it simpler. I can handle that. I hope.

[CountArach]

That really sucks man, but still - you have to keep an eye on her.