Org confessions.

[Fragony]

Lest we be forgiven.

- I liked Moulin Rouge.
- I can't sleep without my teddy-bear (well it's a fox but hey).
- I actually like a 'broodje kroket'.
- I like blood-sausage, on the darkest bread you can find with pieces of apple gawd it's good.
- I got too much change from a rude shopkeeper yesterday and I kept it.
- I ate my horse in a quite wonderous turn of events.

[King Henry V]

- I enjoy listening to disco
- I can do ballroom dancing
- I don't really like the taste of beer, though I drink gallons of it every week.
- I can't ride a bicycle
- Having written this, I think I might go to a sexologist to make sure that I really am heterosexual (crikey, the amount of repressed homosexual jokes I made the other night was quite worrying)
-Technically I'm not English

That's about it for now.

[Rhyfelwyr]

- I ate my horse in a quite wonderous turn of events.

It sounds like there's an interesting story behind that one...

[Kekvit Irae]

-I hate certain groups of people. Details are not forthcoming.
-I love the ocean, but I hate the water.
-I spend more time gaming than I do studying. Then again, who doesn't?
-Blood Bowl has always been, and always will be, the best Warhammer incarnation.

[Strike For The South]

-Im a horn dog
-I like Abba
-Chewing Tobacco makes me sick

[ELITEofWARMANGINGERYBREADMEN88]

- I love Cashews And Milk
- I printed out HOF 2007 MP winners and the Most Funniest Member HOF 2007 thread.
-I Print out every IH Chapter I am in.
- I still sleep with my CareBears and other stuff animals
- When I am tired, I can't think over school work, but I can still do gaming when tired, but not homework.

[Andres]

- I actually like Flemish and Dutch Schlagers, genre Laura Lynn and Frans Bauer;
- When drunk, I dance on disco music;
- I don't eat fish

[Decker]

- I used to think like Caius. I would be driving and think I could kill myself and make it look like a accident. I was practically a manic depressive (I think that's the right term) in HS and into college. But the suicidal thoughts went away by college So... like Pevergreen said. If you need any help Caius, you can PM me as talking with someone, no matter who, is the best form of medicine.

- I usually am really quite and shy around people in almost any situation, yet if I feel like it. I can talk for hours.

- Am really just tooooo nice. No mean, bad, or tough bones in my body, even if I try really hard.

- I also almost have never been mad at anybody. I usually just get really dissapointed.

- I intensely dislike certain groups of people.

- I also don't drink or smoke... at all nor do I plan to in the future

- I also think most models, actresses, or any women considered "hot" by most guys or people I know are never really "hot" to me, just decent

[Scurvy]

- I'm a Demophobe

- I never step on cracks on pavements/roads etc.

- I don't like corners (I never sit opposite corners of tables etc.)

- I really like musicals (both stage and film)

- I passionately hate people who wear hats/sunglasses inside

- I dislike + refuse to talk at length to people who wear headphones while talking to me

- Although i drink a lot, I claim to be teetotal in order to seem more sophisticated

- I'v confessed more than I meant to confess...

[The Stranger]

- I'm not actually that crazy in Real Life.
- I am pretty in Real Life, though never boost with it...
- I don't have much time for the .org no more, and I'm not showing any diseases.
- I'm a person of wild contradictions.
- I expect people to be the best they can.
- Depressed people also fascinate me because I honestly can't understand it, however I have many people in my inner circle who are depressed. I'm torn between telling them that they are losers who feel to much sorry for themselves while there is no good reason and genuinely try to help them.
- I hate people who talk about "Poor/Weak/Sad/ETC Africa, but haven't been there and actually don't know what they talk about.
- I don't hate dumb (which is only perception and a arrogant one too) people but I hate people who do not want to learn, who are either too arrogant or just don't care enough to learn new things.
- I hate people who are to frightened too excell, too frightened to stop listening to other peoples oppinion and form their own, who kneel to peerpressure and do not take responsibility for their own deeds.
- I love all people.

[LittleGrizzly]

Really.... for me my "disliking of groups" changed after I got out of being depressed constantly... I hated the successful and more happier types... now it's kinda switched... with more included.

For me there a slight envy... but the main problem is with myself, i get irratated that what comes so naturally to others is a nightmare for me..

That being said i am hugely arrogant in my own special shy way, when it comes to social matters i put myself near the bottom of the ladder but when it comes to intelligence i just find most people my own age to be fairly stupid, this has changed a bit since i went to university... i still feel intellectually superior to most of the people in my classes but that will probably dramatically change if i begin an applied mathmatics degree...

Sure there have been times I have been sad but I got over them rather quickly and even at my saddest I always had a person there for me whether it be a friend a family member or a willing female there was always SOMEONE there.

It may just be me, but i find part of it is not really wanting to talk about it (yes ironically im here talking about it but the internet is a little different) and the other part of me would feel like i was just looking for compliments to make me feel better or something, i don't think there is anyone in real life i would want to talk to about it with...

This reminds me a slight confession i guess, i had a friend who used to be fat, she would constantly ask me if she was fat and i would constantly reassure her with lies, which annoyed the hell out of me, we both knew she was fat she was just looking for false comfort... thats not the worse bit... because she was fat and got picked on she now has an eating disorder and is deadly skinny, she will several times a day mention how fat she is and i understand that eating disorders affect you physcologically but everytime she says it i take it as just fishing for compliments despite the fact he disorder explains this behaviour..

After going out more into the world and coming across these stories. I can say I cant wrap my head around these stories of being without a voice. Of being all alone and wanting to end it I simply dont get it.

I can't speak for others but from personal experience one of the main components is you cannot see the future getting any better, or more likely you see things as getting worse and worse. With no future to look forward to and with the present seeming bleak even getting out of bed can be an effort, i found especially with my lack of confidence that the withdrawal from society starts slowly... but as you become more withdrawn you lose more confidence and as you lose confidence you become more withdrawn...

It got to the point where i wouldn't bother trying to get a job because i knew i couldn't do the interview well enough, application form (i have a sloppy childs handwriting) and a terrible cv (this cv thing is a vicious spiral as well) i didn't bother trying to get a girlfriend because i knew i couldn't get one and i knew i couldn't go onto further education because the social situation terrified me, i tried twice well i was back in that phase, the second time i ended up trying to smoke weed before i went in to make it less terrifying, this didn't really help either because either i couldn't get any... would end up late because i went for a joint and i couldn't stand the idea of everyone looking as i came in

When faced with that suicide just seemed like the sensible choice, the only prospect i felt i had was a crappy life that was going to be a hard slog the whole way through, especially with my atheist views that death is the end, it just made sense to skip all the misery inbetween, i almost thought off death as a big sleep... and i would always look forward to sleep during my depression (though i don't dream) so the idea of skipping the day to day effort of life and sleeping eternally just seemed like a much better idea... given what i thought back then it does seem fairly logical...

I would like to confess to dragging topics off topic.. maybe this should have its own thread...?

Ohh and incase your wondering... things got better... managed to get myself onto a course to get onto a degree so the future seems decent, not much imporvment on the social side though and a decent girlfriend seems unlikely anytime soon, i would say these days i swing between a mild depression... being pissed off at myself and being fairly content/happy a

- I saved someone's life once, but I wish I hadn't

Really caught my attention with this... care to share more (if you want to) ?

Ohh i love the smell of petrol too!!

[Rhyfelwyr]

LG that is exactly how I feel now. I can cope with my Uni course as it is, but when it goes to honours next year and and its more about group discussion, small classes, and lots of presentations etc, I don't know what I'm going to do.

The thing with the job interviews happened to me as well, in the end my parents made me work in a charity shop, even I couldn't fail the interview like that (basically if you don't have a criminal record your in).

I wouldn't think of suicide though (as an option, not because I didn't want to). Even before I had religious views, I wouldn't have done it when it would have upset my family, especially since I have two younger brothers. Not because of the cheesy family thing (I can't for the life of me take family values seriously), but I suppose having a son dying would be very depressing, and upsetting for them even if I didn't understand it completely.

I dont' feel depressed now as I had before, but I still have mostly the same problems.

Oh and another confession:

- some of my friends think I have aspergers (but I don't think I fit the bill, also I would have to have developed it in the last few years, which can't happen)

[LittleGrizzly]

The thing with the job interviews happened to me as well, in the end my parents made me work in a charity shop, even I couldn't fail the interview like that (basically if you don't have a criminal record your in).

Yeah i was considering something similar, probably a really good way to build yourself up let alone your cv

LG that is exactly how I feel now. I can cope with my Uni course as it is, but when it goes to honours next year and and its more about group discussion, small classes, and lots of presentations etc, I don't know what I'm going to do.

I have quite small classes now, but one thing that has helped me alot is the fact that people are alot older on this course, when im with young people i can't help but think to myself as some kind of lesser person than them, that somehow thier looks and confidence makes them superior to me (half of them probably aren't even better looking it is a bit of a mental block) whereas with older people i feel thier less judgemental (or my assumed negative views they have on me matter less, i would assume older people judge based on looks less presentations isn't really such a problem for me as i have worked as a canvesser in the past (knocking doors selling double glazing and window washing) and when i have a focus like selling windows or making a presentation i can pull off fake confidence brilliantly, its when it comes to small talk where the focus is a bit more hazy like make friends or just have a fun chat....

Often in social situations i have a little voice in my head panicking trying to think of things to say, this makes it harder to actually think of a reply to whatever they said, and my nervousness actually imposes itself on the conversation then making it an awkward situation... which then just reinforces the little voice....

[KarlXII]

I think Beowulf kicked the hell out of 300

[Spartan198]

1. I'm a Britney Spears and Paris Hilton fan.
2. Despite being a Paris Hilton fan, I signed the petition to keep her in jail.
3. I don't think John Cena is stale at all.
4. 300 is my all-time favorite movie.
5. I like XGM more than EB
6. I always have an intense urge to make lorica segmentata threads in the EB/EBII forums.

I think Beowulf kicked the hell out of 300

That's blasphemy! That's madness!

[Fragony]

I am too stupid to do a history course.

[Hooahguy]

1. I'm a Britney Spears and Paris Hilton fan.

5. I like XGM more than EB

i am shunning you forever....

That's blasphemy! That's madness!

no, THIS IS SPARTA!!!!!
lol

[Kralizec]

Forgive me padre, it was three days since my last confession.

-I used to be a really quite and shy fellow in my teens. Nowadays I alternate between quite phases and times when I just can't keep my mouth shut.
-I peed in the shower this morning...

[Mouzafphaerre]

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• I enjoy some nasty ρr0η
• I like Fragony

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[Fragony]

I like Fragony

My turkish delicately depressed muca!

[Alexanderofmacedon]

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• I enjoy some nasty ρr0η

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Should be on everyone's list. I make a motion to add this to mine, at least!

[SwordsMaster]

Although personally I don't understand how people can be so depressed they want to kill themselves and at the same time so lazy they won't make the necessary changes in their lives to improve the situation, I recently stumbled into an article that I like, and perhaps will redirect you teenage emo thoughts into something more useful.

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And if that has helped motivate you to make some changes, read this next one (the posts by "Adsman"), which I personally have found tremendously inspiring, and still re-read every few months, when I feel burnt out.

You always have two decisions available to you. Yes and no.

Warning: The links might contain some un-frontroomish language, so if you mods decide it's too much, and anyone is interested in reading it, drop me a PM, or move to Backroom.

[LittleGrizzly]

I recently stumbled into an article that I like, and perhaps will redirect you teenage emo thoughts into something more useful.

He makes alot of assumptions about depressed people, very few of them actually apply to me, though i suppose im not teenage or emo either...

I have a fairly varied groups of friends, from the serially annoying to the completely stupid and a varied taste in music, i don't usually go on forums with like minded people, if i was to discuss politics with a bunch of socailists apart from the occasional topic it probably wouldn't get much further than 'i agree'

He probably hits on some points that affect a wide range of depressed people but to think its a cure all is somewhat off...