Org confessions.

[Thermal]

YEAH! GO petrol, though it's incredably bad for your health to sniff it in lol

[Decker]

Wow that was a great post LittleGrizzly.

It may just be me, but i find part of it is not really wanting to talk about it (yes ironically im here talking about it but the internet is a little different) and the other part of me would feel like i was just looking for compliments to make me feel better or something, i don't think there is anyone in real life i would want to talk to about it with...

I'm gonna elaborate a little more on this, if LG doesn't mind . Like he said, it's much easier on the internet where you can just type out what you are saying rather than being with a person face-to-face. It's MUCH more intimidating and in a sense, scary. The first time I talked about my issues to anyone, I thought they were gonna laugh in my face, insult me and leave because it was pretty pathetic, the way I was and used to be. And as LG, when you spill the beans and talk about your depression or issues, you feel like you're playing the "victim" and just looking for a bit of a confidence boost.

I can't speak for others but from personal experience one of the main components is you cannot see the future getting any better, or more likely you see things as getting worse and worse. With no future to look forward to and with the present seeming bleak even getting out of bed can be an effort, i found especially with my lack of confidence that the withdrawal from society starts slowly... but as you become more withdrawn you lose more confidence and as you lose confidence you become more withdrawn...

Exactly... getting outta of that and going through all the layers that have been built is a *****
Break one down, another comes up, and so on and so forth. The trick is, at least from my personal experiences, is catching yourself before you slip back into it (which I found to be still... tooooo easy)

I would like to confess to dragging topics off topic.. maybe this should have its own thread...?

That's what I said in my earlier post you quoted... I think it should be a Frontroom topic that's accessible to everyone...

Okay and a confession to stay on topic:

- My favorite color is brown