Thanks for the feedback guys.
I've been thinking about it, and I can probably rule out the Autistic disorders, since it's only really in the past few years I've become bad at dealing with people. Also, I'm pretty ignorant of the condition, but do Autistm sufferers not tend to have problems with their temper? Because I can't make myself get angry if I try.
I think I may see the doctor about this. During the Christmas holidays, my Dad booked my an appointment to see about my hands while he was down because of some bug he took, apparently the doctor had asked how me and my brothers were doing. Of course, I was told I was going to see about my diet and the IBS which I took a while ago, because I guess my parents knew I wouldn't want to go down to see about my hands/OCD. Anyway when I went for the appointment the doctor was asking about why my hands were in their condition etc, I admitted I had a bit of a thing about washing them but I didn't really want to go into details at the risk of a big deal being made about it. I think he realised I wasn't being entirely honest, he said if I was playing it down I could talk to him again. Anyway, he took a blood test to see about my general health, and it turns out my folic acid is too high (anyone know anything about this, wiki doesn't say much). So I've to go back for a blood test to check it again in a couple of months, and I think that maybe I should see about my OCD then.
On the one hand I don't want happy pills, I suppose I'm hoping that it will just go away, like it did for tibilicus. But at the same time, I don't want to waste anymore of my life. I always hear people talking about how Uni was the best days of their life, but I've now done 1.5 of my 4 years and I'm not in any way involved in any student activities. There's one guy I talk to at lectures sometimes, and he couldn't believe that I hadn't been in either of the student union buildings. My piano teacher (one good thing is that I recently quit the piano) thought it was incredible that I haven't drank a drop of alcohol at my time in Uni. Of course, anyone who knows me from the Backroom will know I'm not going to get carried away in the partying; but it would be nice to get some kind of life, maybe I'm just going soft.
Sorry about my constant ranting here, maybe the fact that I am ranting and questioning my lifestyle is a good sign?
EDIT: As for the employment thing, I'm talking about not being able to get part-time jobs to contribute a little income. What I mean is in the future, once I have my degree, I don't want to be sitting in my suit looking to build a career, only for the interviewer to look at my info and see a history of mental health problems.
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