I have big problems; please help me.

[pezhetairoi]

Sorry to say it this way dude, but your case is really nothing special. If you read the posts on this thread, you'll realise that we've ALL been through exactly the same thing. We've had our own shitty 13 years of age, our down in the dirt teenage years. It's always crappy, the teenage years--and yet we are here now, years later, and some even while they are still grappling with their own problems in their teenage lives, telling you not to do anything stupid, and walk on.

We've made it through our teenage years with the same friendlessness and the same parental fights. Which teenage kid doesn't fight with his parents, I ask you? My parents, as I said, did the exact same with my computer, and confiscated my handphone for three months. Nevertheless I decided in the end to continue living on because death is a mug's game--there's so much to live for still. Getting into arguments with parents is a terrible reason for which to kill yourself--if it was a halfway good one we'd already see thousands of teens jumping like lemmings from the Golden Gate Bridge or mass-electrocuting themselves at the nearest electrified fence. Yet we don't. Says something, doesn't it?

We know how you feel here--you may say 'it's different, it's different, you don't understand.' But truth is, your story is the age-old story that teens around the world in all kinds of backgrounds and all kinds of eras have gone through. It may not have involved Xboxes in 450BC, of course, but substitute something that means a lot to you and you've got the picture. And you will come out of it and go on to a life less (or more, depending on how you look at it) ordinary like the vast majority of the human race has.

You'll be fine, dude. I'll be your friend if you want me to. But remember this: NO ONE is ever truly alone in this world. NO ONE. And the people who are posting now on this thread do care for you in some small way--though they've never met you before, they care enough about you that they want you to treasure your life. I care enough that I want you to go on with it. And I'll even accompany you along if you want it. But don't insult your own body and soul and will by deciding to kill them off before they've truly had a chance to prove themselves in later life.