I think something is deeply wrong with me

[Centurion1]

*sigh* i am a few years older than you and a hormone drunk football player and i have dreams like that all the time. Some of my favorites are mma fighter, living in books that i love, historical events like thermopylae, hmm, oh and i like when i have dreams about being a marine infantry officer.

Dude, these things are normal and while i am loath to say something this cliched.... your body is changing (good i feel like a school nurse). you are starting to pump out more testosterone. The fact that you cried definetly tells me that you are not psychopathic. Hell in real life i would probably bash someone's head in if they shot me. Gah, you are probably kinder than me, i wouldn't even have cried. you have morals and know the difference between right and wrong, embrace this as knowledge that you are not a sociopath. As a boy who loves war, and violent video games, especially ancient war it really isn't surprising you had a dream like this. Seriously i would not worry about it, the dream barely made me blink. up until the part where you talked to his skull i didn't even notice anything weird for a fourteen year old boy. And the skull thing wa just your body creating mental imagery you knew was weird so it was easier to reject the dream.

Oh and p.s. i had dreams like this when i was like 11 if it makes you feel better. Than again i was sure that my family was descended from william the conqueror and i was a lord of battle. and my ancestors had taken many saxon heads. When i played football i even had a flipping war cry. So trust me you aren't even a 3 or 4 on the violence scale.

So dream kill on my brother in arms.