I think something is deeply wrong with me

[Prussian to the Iron]

I had this dream last night where this little girl had a mans pistol pointed at her head, being held hostage. I snuck into the house through an open backdoor, and bear-hugged the man, trying to restrain him. I on his back, we ended up outside, where he shot me with his pistol in my neck. On the ground, with a sharp pain but almost no detriment to anything else, I continually told the people now standing in front of me to "Kill him! Kill him!". When I asked why they weren't moving, they pointed to my 9 year-old brother and a similar sized child, who were beating something a few feet into the woods. I moved up to it, and saw the mans barely alive body. Furious, I grabbed a log and repeatedly bashed his face and chest with great joy until his body was barely identifiable with a human. Later, after his flesh and organs were decayed and all that was left were bones, I fond the bones, smashing out some of the skulls teeth with my shoe, and then talked to it, telling it that nobody cared he had died, nobody ever loved him, etc. Then that night, I burned his bones until they were nothing but ash.

Now every time I think about that horrible bashed in face, I am horrified of the sight, ashamed that I had joy in doing such a thing, and sadness that I killed another human being, even if it was in this dream. Every time I think about that face, I have crying fits. Over the last hour I've been awake, I've spent about 45 minutes of it crying.

Is there something wrong with me?

[Fragony]

Dreams can be extremely strange, but yeah I would say that there is something wrong with you, they shouldn't 'hang on'. Might want to talk to someone if it bothers you.

[pevergreen]

Go distract yourself and you'll soon move on.

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DUDE UR SCREWD UP. GET SUM MEDS OR SUMTIN YO.

[Philippus Flavius Homovallumus]

I had this dream last night where this little girl had a mans pistol pointed at her head, being held hostage. I snuck into the house through an open backdoor, and bear-hugged the man, trying to restrain him. I on his back, we ended up outside, where he shot me with his pistol in my neck. On the ground, with a sharp pain but almost no detriment to anything else, I continually told the people now standing in front of me to "Kill him! Kill him!". When I asked why they weren't moving, they pointed to my 9 year-old brother and a similar sized child, who were beating something a few feet into the woods. I moved up to it, and saw the mans barely alive body. Furious, I grabbed a log and repeatedly bashed his face and chest with great joy until his body was barely identifiable with a human. Later, after his flesh and organs were decayed and all that was left were bones, I fond the bones, smashing out some of the skulls teeth with my shoe, and then talked to it, telling it that nobody cared he had died, nobody ever loved him, etc. Then that night, I burned his bones until they were nothing but ash.

Now every time I think about that horrible bashed in face, I am horrified of the sight, ashamed that I had joy in doing such a thing, and sadness that I killed another human being, even if it was in this dream. Every time I think about that face, I have crying fits. Over the last hour I've been awake, I've spent about 45 minutes of it crying.

Is there something wrong with me?

Nope, not really. If you have a very strong moral streak, are unusually passionate, this sort of thing is percetly normal. Basically, you're saying that in the dream you succumbed to fury at what you saw at an evil act, now you're awake and calm, you can see the horror of your own actions and are appalled.

You seem perfectly normal, sane and ballanced. You may be a little highly strung. If it continues to bother you, you might want to talk to someone about it, by which I mean a friend. Older male for preference. I wouldn't worry though, unless it's still bothering you in a couple of weeks.

Dreams can be extremely strange, but yeah I would say that there is something wrong with you, they shouldn't 'hang on'. Might want to talk to someone if it bothers you.

Yeah, give the kid a complex, Frag. It was last night, for Pete's sake.

[Prussian to the Iron]

Dreams can be extremely strange, but yeah I would say that there is something wrong with you, they shouldn't 'hang on'. Might want to talk to someone if it bothers you.

every time I try to talk to someone, I just can't get it out right, and then I think of the face and start crying again.

[Fragony]

every time I try to talk to someone, I just can't get it out right, and then I think of the face and start crying again.

Talk to a professional, in the end this is a gaming forum, you might not get the best advice. Imho if you thing something is wrong it's impossible something isn't wrong, if all is good nothing bothers you.

[taka]

There's two things I guess:

1. Did you recently watch anything on TV or in the cinema?

Dreams are very strange things, and what we watch and do affect us greatly. I still remember once after watching resident evil movie (or playing the game, can't quite remember) that i had a dream where i was going to school and then all hell broke loose with zombies and everything.

So just wanna say that if you did watch do something which resulted in the dream, then it's fine, just give it some time to pass.

2. Do you know the person that you "killed" in your dream?

As I said above, it could be that you know this person and he's done something to you that hurt you (mentally or physically). Subconciously you will hate him and therefore in your dream you might want to harm the person. In this case, you probably should tell someone about it. Sometimes that's all that's needed - getting it off your chest and you will be fine. Talking to someone you don't know actually works surprisingly very well.

If it does further affect you, maybe you would like to try some help.

[Prussian to the Iron]

I watched 300 last night, but I've watched that twice this week on TV, plus watching LOTR 1 and 2 this week. but when I used to play Gears of War or CoD5 I never get this kind of thing.

and no, I did not know the person, at least not to my current knowledge. if it was someone I knew, I wouldn't know; I don't really recall his normal face, but if I had to choose someone I think it would be that guy from that discovery channel show about breaking into peoples houses and giving them security systems.

[Beefy187]

If I read that right, the man you killed was holding this girl hostage and you killed that man for it. Somewhat heroic.

In Japan that would be called "Chuni byou" (Grade eighter disease) where you dream your self being an hero or someone important in day dreaming or in dreams.

Its an important process to recognize your importantness and mightiness, and while those Chuni people gets mocked for it, there is absolutely nothing wrong with it. Its just to keep the balance of self esteem.

If there is something you should worry, that would be the method of you saving the girl. Repeatedly bashing the man where as normal Chuni kids (and my self) choose something innocent like "ultimate fire storm" or "final lightning"... Or Katana. That shows you are some what influenced by violent ways and while you know its morally wrong, deep inside your mind you want to do it.

I also advice you to talk to the professionals just to make sure if this is trivial or something you should seriously worry about especially if the dream keeps recurring or if you can't forget about it as the impression it made on you was so big.

I had a friend who kept on watching dreams about getting chased by an giant shadow. One version of that dream was him trying to get pass it by hiding in the toilet. Shadow came in and went passed the toilet as it shouted out "Rambo IV sucks"

Boarders ....

[KukriKhan]

A "Shrink" might have some fun with the symbolism of your dream, but: having a vivid, violent dream is not that unusual, especially in the teen years when we are trying to figure out who we are.

I wouldn't worry until you had the same dream 4 or 5 nights running, and then I still wouldn't worry too much; your mind is likely trying to work out a problem that your awake-self can't figure out (and you have a tendency to take things to an extreme). If it's still bugging you this time next week, maybe seek counsel.

[Prussian to the Iron]

If I read that right, the man you killed was holding this girl hostage and you killed that man for it. Somewhat heroic.

In Japan that would be called "Chuni byou" (Grade eighter disease) where you dream your self being an hero or someone important in day dreaming or in dreams.

Its an important process to recognize your importantness and mightiness, and while those Chuni people gets mocked for it, there is absolutely nothing wrong with it. Its just to keep the balance of self esteem.

If there is something you should worry, that would be the method of you saving the girl. Repeatedly bashing the man where as normal Chuni kids (and my self) choose something innocent like "ultimate fire storm" or "final lightning"... Or Katana. That shows you are some what influenced by violent ways and while you know its morally wrong, deep inside your mind you want to do it.

I also advice you to talk to the professionals just to make sure if this is trivial or something you should seriously worry about especially if the dream keeps recurring or if you can't forget about it as the impression it made on you was so big.

I had a friend who kept on watching dreams about getting chased by an giant shadow. One version of that dream was him trying to get pass it by hiding in the toilet. Shadow came in and went passed the toilet as it shouted out "Rambo IV sucks"

Boarders ....

no, it wasnt killing him for threatening a little girl, it was the fact that he had shot me. it was less of a heroic thing and more of a darth vader thing.