I respectfully request guidance.

**CrossLOPER** · 11-21-2009, 00:51

I have not been an active member of the Org for about a year. Since my self-imposed exile, I have have gone in odd directions. In most cases, I have found some success. However, I feel that today is a critical day that will have some determination as to where things will lead. Strange as this request is in its nature, I think that some of those here may impart some wisdom to me.

I have been led astray.

I prefer not to give too much information here, though the situation is somewhat complex. Essentially, I feel that I have behaved inappropriately to someone, and they appear to be hurt. To what extent, I am not even entirely sure. The result of my behavior was unintentional, but that is unimportant. The implications of all of this have both personal and professional academic bearings.

I think I should apologize. I want to apologize. I probably won't see them until Monday, assuming they want to be seen. This makes things worse since it is better to conduct an apology in person. However, I feel that every second the effects of the poison become worse and I want to contact them NOW. E-mail, phone... anything.

The timing of all of this is horrendous. Monday is a special day for them, and I would hate to foul it. This is yet another reason to send something now, however. I could promise further apologies, but I don't know if they'll take it seriously.

This has happened before and I did nothing. The results could have been infinitely worse, but I just happened to be lucky. I do not want to rely on that now.

**PershsNhpios** · 11-21-2009, 01:01

Having placed so much effort in describing your predicament without disclosing any details whatsoever, you must now have found the answer for yourself.

Truly s'ah! I am not making a poor joke.

If I were in trouble and in such a desperate state of mind as to seek personal advice from the fellowship here, well-meaning as they are, my illusion would last only to the moment when I first began receiving replies.

I would then realise that I had provided myself with the answer and know that the question was not necessary.

**CrossLOPER** · 11-21-2009, 01:05

You are right.

**Kadagar_AV** · 11-21-2009, 01:21

Case closed then :)

I hope it goes well!

**Ice** · 11-21-2009, 03:16

My advice is wait. Emotional decisions usually do not trump logical decisions. Take the weekend and think it over. If are you aren't comfortable with Monday, wait till Tuesday. It doesn't seem like a few days would that much of a difference, and the value of logic is immeasurable.

**Major Robert Dump** · 11-21-2009, 03:47

I think you should give us all the meaty details.

**CrossLOPER** · 11-21-2009, 04:00

Here's my logic: I feel that I were to wait, it would seem as if I didn't care or I am too scared to try right my wrongs.

I do care. A lot. More than I probably should.

They seemed obviously hurt, and from such a simple mistake. Again, I hurt someone from a lack of good judgment before and did nothing. They apparently brushed it off, but the way they looked at me for years later haunts me still. I feel as if that was a warning.