Wherever did he go?

Kind of on topic, but deviating...

Episode 3.

I am really something. Some of you may remember a certain crazy girl that was in my life.


Hell, I was even smart enough to post this!
Quote Originally Posted by pevergreen View Post
tl;dr Life is good, crazy ex will not be a factor ever again.
Notice the Episode 3 above?

Man, I wish I had the optimism of Prussian or Hooah sometimes.

Around christmas I was nice to her for a few minutes. Month and a half later said hello, that was it.

A month ago, how are you etc.

Less than a week ago: We had a really nice conversation...it felt exactly like it used to, before anything went wrong.

Saw her saturday night. We did absolutely nothing. She was late, then we spent about 20 minutes attempting to find each other. Holy smokes, did she look different. I don't mean to offend anyone, but you could have picked her up and put her on a sidewalk and people would be inquiring as to how much for 'directions'.

We sat in the rain for a while, and it was not awkward at all, like we thought it would be. She's leaving and going to England in under two weeks for a decent amount of time. It was meant to be a goodbye, look at her now egads etc etc.

Until today.

I picked her up after she finished work and drove her 90 minutes to where her car was. It was such a reversal. When we were together, I couldn't drive (she's a year older) so she did, and it was just weird to see the differences.

Shes getting bogged down in stuff again. She came on last night at 1am, said hello, i just found out my best friend has cancer and may die this year, what do i do? I said be her friend etc etc and she went to bed. And now this.

Am i screwing myself over again for this darn girl and the shadow of what we used to have?