I give up.

[Prussian to the Iron]

So I'll edit and give full details later, but basically I'm freaking done with women. Too much effort and hurt and nothing in return. screw sex, I haven't even had a girlfriend for more than 1 date before! and I've only been out on 2 dates, 1 of which thought it wasnt one!

so yeah, I'm just saying screw it and not even caring. I'll be that guy who's like 30 before I even have a girlfriend. the worst part is that I have tons of friends, but girls just always wanna be friends. *sigh*. it doesnt matter anyway. I'll just creep back into my little hole.


So here's the scoop:

So I transferred into another Gym class like 2 weeks ago (because my math class changed which changed half my schedule), where I met this girl Shelby. we totally clicked and just talked and laughed like every day of gym for the whole time almost. Homecoming (last night) was coming up, so I asked her to it. she said yes, I bought her ticket, and we had everything planned out pretty much.
I was going to her house to ride with her, and her best friend and her date were riding with us. we were getting pizza beforehand, and her friends dad was supposed to pick us up at 11, after being dropped off at 8.

her mom really liked me (I think) and we were talking and laughing at her house and it was great. then we got to the dance.
so we're kinda talking, then we get inside and she bolts off to talk to just about everyone at the dance who wasn't me, leaving me lonely standing next to her friends date while they were talking away almost the whole time. I asked her to dance, she said she didn't feel well (she'd been sick for a couple weeks with a chest infection), so we went out into the cafeteria where it was pretty calm and everything.
then her friend comes up to me and asks if I thought we were just going as friends or if I thought it was a date. told her it was a date.
then shelby comes over and says she didnt wanna dance because like her ex-boyfriend (they broke up 4 MONTHS AGO!!!!), who is constantly flirting with her in band, had something to do with like she doesnt like to slow dance (I offered at the not slow dance too). so then after this she goes off and talks to more people, while I'm left by myself again.

so after waiting...and waiting...and waiting....and then searching for her for a while, I just decided that I'd just leave. why stay there alone while my date pretty much didn't even need me to be there? so I left.

later, she texts me and asks if I was still there...like an hour after I left. then she said that she had been looking for me for almost an hour. the part that really hurts me here is that last year her date stood her up the day before, so she said she probably won't go to any more dances. and then we went into a whole discussion about why she doesn't wanna go out with anyone right now (the prior discussion about the ex-boyfriend happened here, where I said it happened before she just said she had bad experiences slow dancing). so...now I'm stuck in friendland at best, probably lower than that if possible, because this little ****e piece of crap harasses her. frickin douche.


so yeah. thats why I'm done. callin it quits. frickin sick and tired of trying and just getting beat down every time, while being forced to observe the successful or at least good relationships that just about all of my friends have. I'll never understand why girls are like they are, but it'd be nice if they'd just quit like all the a-hole stuff, I think that would really help the world out.