Last night I went to a bar with some friends/acquaintances and we were all drinking, playing pool etc. When I went up to the bartender to order another beer he told me something I've been told numerous times throughout my life. "Hey buddy you don't seem to talk much do you?" I said no not really and went on.

I've been thinking about this a lot since last night. This has been a problem since I've been a teenager. I'm not really sure what to do about it. There are two main reasons for this that I can think of:

1. I have a fear of people thinking I'm stupid, so I just keep my mouth shut. I realize that by rarely speaking people probably already think that about me. I know that it is a pretty ridiculous thing to be scared of, but it's always in the back of my mind. It is a hurdle I just can't seem to get over.

2. I have a tendency to stumble over my words. My thoughts are flying through my head, but my mouth just can't seem to keep up. It's embarrassing for me when it happens.

I don't know why I'm sharing this with you guys, but I am. Have a nice day/evening.