I arrived in Israel in early September. I came with an open mind, since I believe shutting one's mind from the start from a new experience is a bad thing in almost every case.
The first month I went with the flow, went to services in the morning, afternoon, and evening, went to all my classes, and tried my hardest to pay attention. After a month were the high holidays- Rosh Hashanah, Yom Kippur, and Sukkot. All the while I can not say that I was really enjoying the experience. After Yom Kippur I went on a 3-day hike called Yam L'yam (sea to sea) where we hiked from the Mediterranean to the Sea of Galilee, something like 60+ km. My feet were essentially destroyed by the hike since it was so strenuous, so I barely moved from my bed for like 4 days after the hike. No services, no classes.
But you know something? I enjoyed it. I enjoyed not going to anything. I sat in bed and read books, listened to music, or slept. I hobbled down to the computer room once a day to check facebook and email, and twice a day to eat something so I wouldnt starve.
Once my feet recovered a few days later and I could walk without a limp, I decided to still not go to anything. And I was happy. I was really happy to do nothing. The fact how I didnt go to prayers or any classes registered nothing but happiness in my mind. I just didnt care anymore. It was then that I began to re-examine my views on pretty much everything. I also began to surround myself with similar-minded people who attended my institution. There are few of us, and we are all quite close.
I had been pro-gay rights for a whole already, but when the issue was raised at my institution, most of the people there showed nothing but ignorance on the subject. While we explained to them that it was not right to impose Jewish values on people who werent Jewish, such as being gay, they just could not accept that. They stubbornly insisted that since our Torah said that being gay was a crime, everyone who was gay is a sinner. That got me mad. I should add that the institution I am at claims to be somewhat "progressive."
Then one day we took a trip somewhere in Israel, cant remember where, and we were told the story of some Israeli soldier who jumped on a grenade to save his friends.
By then the fact that I wanted to join the US Army, and that my best friend wanted to join the US Marines, was pretty well known, and we got a lot of

from it. And when I say a lot, I mean a lot. Such as alumni of the institution who had joined the IDF coming up to us to demand why we were "traitors" to our country. Speaking of one's country, I hung an American flag in my dorm room, since I wanted to show I love America in a sea of slightly anti-American rhetoric. They asked me to take it down, so me being the nice person I am, I took it down, but it took me 3 months to do it. It seems like people here cannot understand why I love the United States. In their eyes, a Jew should only love Israel, a view I vehemently disagree with.
I was really, really mad, but I dont show my anger on a daily basis since being always angry is a bad thing.
Oh, and I might add that 90% of the people who seem to hate America are going to college in the US. I really want to punch them in the face. Every one of them.
Anyhow back to the story. We were at this place and one idiotic person at my institution just had to lean over and tell my friend and I that "stuff like this only happens in the Israeli army since in the American military they only care about themselves."
We were seriously contemplating pushing him down the flight of stairs we were walking down. We were so angry that someone, who claimed to be a high school grad, could make such an ignorant comment. We spent the next week posting stories of US servicemen jumping on grenades to save their fellow soldiers on his facebook wall. Of course he claimed he ignored the posts since he cannot admit he was an idiot. We seriously think that half of the people here have IQs of under 70, they are that stupid.
It was then that I began to hate where I was. I began to hate religious Judaism and the ignorance it propagates.
Last week we had the annual talk about how much of a sin masturbation was. Of course they could not bring any reason other than religious ones, all of which can be debunked by science. Of course when people asked them about the fact how science disproves all of their claims, they just answered that we should "ignore science for a minute and look at Jewish law." Most of us (as in, my small group of friends) just got up at left at that point.
Along with my criticism of Judaism comes the Israel stuff. So some of you might have heard the stuff that has been going on with regards to Haredi men spitting on little girls who were walking to school. Then came the riots. I live about a ten minute drive from the "hot zone." Im not even sure where to begin when it comes to all this. There is so much racism and bigotry in this country that is propagated in the name of religion that its ridiculous. Last month or so, mobs of Orthodox Jews went around vandalizing mosques with anti-Muslim phrases and even burning some mosques down. Of course, this wasnt much news among the people here. No one seemed to care. Yet when one anti-Semitic guy throws bricks though a few Jewish stores in some small town in the US, the Jewish world declared it the "American Kristallnacht."
What a

joke, makes me want to puke.
Im pretty burnt out right now. Im tired of being among idiots, tired of having to fake being religious because the last guys who were caught violating the sabbath were kicked out for a week, tired of being in this country where they claim to be a democracy, yet are slaves to a religion where freedom is hated.
I might post more about this later, Im just exhausted.
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