I need advice on how to move on.

[Fragony]

Gotcha, carefull with expressions, it may look as if non-english here actually speak English but if you haven't lived there you don't understand it

[Major Robert Dump]

In 5 years she will be fat and stupid

[Strike For The South]

In 5 years she will be fat and stupid

But what if that's how daddy likes them?

[Husar]

But what if that's how daddy likes them?

I would tell daddy that I don't share and he already has mommy.

[a completely inoffensive name]

I'm getting anxious just from knowing that in about 48 hours I will no longer be able to talk to my best friend since middle school. I hope that when I eventually am able to move past this (and no sooner) she will be willing to accept me as a friend again. We've had this song and dance before actually in high school. Obviously, the relationship didn't last long when we had broken up for the first time, but we managed to stay friends and reunite later despite a more...hostile breakup tone back then.

[TinCow]

We've had this song and dance before actually in high school.

...and there's the root of your problem. This is the classic childhood love interest. Those things almost never work out. You fell in love with her when neither of you even knew who you were. Now you're adults and you're different people than you were when you met, but your emotions haven't realized that yet. Welcome to adult relationships, now you get to date someone who didn't know you during your immensely awkward teenage years. That's a good thing.

[Xiahou]

We've had this song and dance before actually in high school.

Maybe it's just me, but I think you have the right to be a little angry here. Don't get me wrong, you don't want to rage out and do anything stupid- but it does sound like she was using you a little and I agree that cutting contact is the best course of action.

The way I see it is that she wants to be free to have flings with other guys as she sees fit, but still wants to keep you on the back burner as a "friend" when she wants the emotional support that she won't get from her dalliances. That's a very one-sided relationship. She's getting everything she wants and you're being torn apart emotionally by it.

Maybe she isn't even consciously doing it, but I think you're being used. Cut off contact. Otherwise you'll see the same "song and dance" over and over again.

Edit: Also, to echo what others have said- find other things to occupy your time and energy.

[Philippus Flavius Homovallumus]

I'm getting anxious just from knowing that in about 48 hours I will no longer be able to talk to my best friend since middle school. I hope that when I eventually am able to move past this (and no sooner) she will be willing to accept me as a friend again. We've had this song and dance before actually in high school. Obviously, the relationship didn't last long when we had broken up for the first time, but we managed to stay friends and reunite later despite a more...hostile breakup tone back then.

Realistically, you can't be friends with your ex - not if the relationship was serious. As cut up as you are it seems like there probably isn't anything you can salvage without leaving yourself hung up for years.

I'm older that you, take me as an object lesson from experience. Make a clean break, and make it clear to her that you can't be friends because it's not healthy for either of you. Otherwise, you'll be starting a thread in the tavern in a few years telling us about how she just posted her engagement photos on facebook.

[a completely inoffensive name]

The letter is written. Eight pages. I should be asleep so I can wake up in 3.5 hours cuz I need to get my car to the house by 10am. But I can't really sleep. I guess I will just loaf around and pack my things for the Saturday stay with my parents. And then this can all be over.

[InsaneApache]

Time my friend, time.

How long is up to you.