It's more the thought that I spent 3 years of my life in a doomed relationship to begin with. It's the thought that if my gf was already so cold and ready to drop me at the end, she was probably already playing the field and merely just wanted to get the formalities out of the way. It's the thought that I am probably going to be alone for a while. All I care about is my work, learning and sharing my ideas with someone else and vice versa. I despise cynicism but if that is the truth, then I have no option than to be that guy.