Fate- does it exist?

[Brenus]

Hmm. Is fate a other word for destiny? It is something I am struggling with, because part of the atheist wants something for explanation for events I try to control.
You know, I am at the age where question "if I could, what would I change" happened. And the fact is my answer is nothing. All doors closed meant a new door opened. Better or not, I will never know.
As a Prachet's reader, I know there no what if as there is no guarantee that a different choice/road would have given a better result of worst.
No girl friend at 19, no marriage, no divorce, perhaps still in the army or killed in Iraq or Africa, no university, etc, to the end of no beautiful grand-daughters. Or perhaps not.
Fate: a wild river on which you are kayaking with the illusion you control the stream, and any way, finish by death
Life is a sexually transmitted deadly disease said a French humorist.