A Rant on Life

**Kaiser of Arabia** · 01-31-2005, 21:30

There are some people in this world, that I cannot say what I think of them, I cannot do anything around them, because, well, I don't need to explain why, I'll just say it would be best if I didn't say it.
Here is a message to one of these of these people.

[CENSORED].

Maybe once I get this out, I'll feel alittle better. Maybe not. I really don't know. I just hope that one day, I will be able to have my vengance. One day. That day is not today.

A man can only put up with so much. The amount differs from person to person, but I'm going to say this, I put up with alot. It may not seem that way to people on the outside, the people I see everyday in school and shit like that, it may seem that I am a nasty prick or somthing like that. Let me explain somthing, people are not born mean or nice, caring or uncaring, smart or stupid. At birth, for the most part, we're all equal. We get the way we are because of what happens to us, because of what we go through. Some of us can get through life without a care in the world, others need to be smart, and mean, to survive. I'm of the latter of the two. If I wasn't the way I am, ruthless and cynical, I would have gone crazy long ago, maybe I would even have died. I don't know, and I don't want to find out. I really don't care what other people think of me, I never did, all I know is that I have to watch out for myself, and sofar, I've done that very well.
For everything in life, there are consequences, not only from others, but to ourselves as well. Everything we do for someone, everything we do to someone, will effect us in several different ways. It will have an effect externally, what other people will do, and internally. What most people do not know is, the more we do that's bad, the deeper the problem gets buried, while the more we do that is good, the more at peace with ourselves we are. I, personally, will only find peace on the day I die, and if that be soon, so be it. Death smiles at us all, and all a man can do is smile back.
I post this here because you guys at the .org have always been here when I needed to get away, or when I needed help. I wish I could say that about my family but I can't. I thank you all for your support over the months that I've been here.

**TonkaToys** · 02-01-2005, 09:53

Capo, very poignant. I hope you don't mind me speaking up, and tell me to f*** right off if you do.

Things change in life. You will move on. You are an intelligent person, judging by your posts, and should do well in life.

The situation you find yourself in now will probably not last. Either you will be able to change jobs, or leave school, or move away; perhaps not immediately but eventually.

People enter and leave your life, either for the good or the bad. The person you hate now may seem like a distant memory in a few years. Don't let their behaviour colour your judgement of everyone else - there are good people out there. Reserve your wrath for those that deserve it, but don't seek revenge; the act of revenge in some way validates their behaviour.

Sorry mate for intruding into your rant, but you are among friends here.

**LittleGrizzly** · 02-03-2005, 12:10

well apologys in advace capo if this was just a rant you wanted to give out without feedback on....

all I know is that I have to watch out for myself, and sofar, I've done that very well.

I agree with you to a point there, ive learnt what i can trust people with and what i can't, for example one of my friends i can trust to be generous and help me out with cigs/money if i need it, but he cannot at all be trusted with a secret.

I just hope that one day, I will be able to have my vengance. One day. That day is not today.

revenge is a dish best served cold and without repurcussions, my ex boss who sacked me then refused to pay me, then said hes having my money is getting it, been almost 2 years now so when it comes ill be a distant memory, so save up that anger and unleash it in a controlled way by getting him back.

**Kaiser of Arabia** · 02-04-2005, 00:28

Thanks Grizz and Tonka.
BTW *&^&( wasn't directed at anyone here.
But one thing though, that person will not be out of my life soon. He's a relative, and one that everyone in my family loves. I just gotta wait till the drugs or $5 whores kill him.
Anyway, I do feel better now that I got that out. Thanks for your support guys

**ichi** · 02-04-2005, 01:33

The best revenge is living well.

Too often we caught up in the here and now. If where you are is not a place that you enjoy, then make plans and take steps to move on, maybe move away. THere is no place in the world you cannot go, nothing you cannot do, unless you restrict yourself.

The most satisfying things in the world are friendship and success. A man cannot have friends unless he trusts and allows himself to be a friend. One cannot succeed until plans are made and carried out.

When I was a teenager my life was, well, less than pleasant at times. I moved away, moved on, moved up. My victory was not in beating down those that made me miserable, my joy came from achieving those things that everyone tried to deny me.

It's not about them, its about you. Toughness is one thing, but patience is the true key. Once you know what you want, and once you resolve to have that which you want, then patience comes easy, and the tasks fall into place, and then one day you win. The harder it is the better it feels when that day comes.

ichi

**Devastatin Dave** · 02-04-2005, 01:44

Dude, sorry you're kinda feeling like shit and all. Its unfortunate that you have to go through this. My aunt's a crack head. It sucks but all you can do for them is love them and let them know you care. She finally got help but the bitch sure did f### things up with the whole family. Try not to let this stuff dictate your feelings so much. When you start thinking about death and stuff like that it does no one any good. You'd be surprised at how many people are affected when someone dies. So its best not to even say such things. I've seen what suicide can do to a family and I've seen how the threat of suicide to someone like your Uncle doesn't help them, it will sometimes make the situation worse. The guy has enough to worry about, help him by letting him know you care about him and give him assurance that you would never hurt yourself in spite of his situation. Get off the death thing, life's a great gift, keep living.
I've seen it man, death don't smile at shit, death's a mutha that no one should mess with. Again man, as a friend, it concerns me when someone that's intelligent and young concerns themselves with such grief.

**Devastatin Dave** · 02-04-2005, 01:46

Man, when I wrote what I wrote ichi wrote one of the most kick ass posts I've read in a while. Take his advice Capo, take revenge by living good and enjoying life... ###k death and anyone making you think that would be any solution.

**frogbeastegg** · 02-05-2005, 16:27

Speaking as someone who survived years of extreme unpleasantness from other people I'd add my own two pence on the revenge front: let it go. Trust me on this; there is nothing so blissfully sweet as realising you have entirely moved on and that you have not only survived but thrived. I won in the end, though they will never know it. I know it, and that is what matters to me. The people who tried to kill me, beat me up, insulted me, mocked me and generally made my life hell for years lost. I'm still here and I am happy; I feel once again instead of being trapped in the emotionless void they sent me to. I'm loved and I love. If I held on to any part of those years, remembering and wishing for revenge, well I would have lost because those people would still be in my life in some way, tainting it.

When things are bad, and have been bad for a long time, it is easy to feel that life will never improve. I even forgot what it felt like to be happy. I did not believe life could and would get better - after years and years of exactly the same crap day in and day out at school I could not even imagine what life would be like without the gangs hunting me and tormenting me. Now, here I am a few years later and I am happy. Life is good. Those long years are now just memories, ones I can sum up at will and ignore the rest of the time. It does get better; it just takes a damned long time sometimes.

**Tribesman** · 02-05-2005, 23:38

"....I am happy , Life is good....."fair play to ya Froggy

Don't let the buggers get you down .

Edit , heed the words of life Capo , lifes a bitch , make the most of it and don't let people stand in the way of making the most of your life

**derF** · 02-05-2005, 23:55

This is a refreshing change from all the usual s**t that gets posted in the forums. I like a good down-to-earth topic every now and then.

Well, im under the impression that this topic is about Life and its ups/downs highs/lows and heres what i think.

I generally love my life. When i see people worse-off than me (like people who have issues and BIG problems) i feel very lucky. The important thing for me is to be happy in life, so if theres something bothering me i tend to tackle it rather stubbornly. Also, there are times (like once a day) where i enjoy thinking deeply so i can be totally honest and truthful with myself. This lets me easily decide how to tackle problems.

Important things i have learnt/been taught:
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1. "Are we to survive or are we to live?" - My uncle.
2. "Clarity of mind, provides clarity of action" - Myself.
3. Set nothing in stone.
4. Everything dies, so theres no need to fear it.
5. Respect all who deserve.
6. We are insignificant specs within the unfathomable vastness of space.

**Big King Sanctaphrax** · 02-06-2005, 00:43

Sorry if this is off topic but what picked you up? Floyd I guess....

Music did play a part, but there were other, rather...unpleasant events which also contributed, upon which I'd rather not elaborate. I don't want to steal Capo's thunder, anyway.

**Byzantine Prince** · 02-07-2005, 23:28

I am actually quite surprised to see people have had similar unpleasantness like I did. That's really refreshing. Usually people can't relate to this. I guess people who play this game are more intelligent then the average populace though so I quess it makes some sense.

**LittleGrizzly** · 02-08-2005, 00:39

I am actually quite surprised to see people have had similar unpleasantness like I did.

same here, upon hearing froggys story the first time (which was quite a while back now i think) it made me realise my experience wasn't so bad in comparison, the difference is the friend who betrayed me and got almost all my year to sign a shall we say special certificate for me, he is the reason i have the great friends i have now and i got to see my revenge played out in school. It was worringly satisfying.