A spilling of guts

[discovery1]

Thanks for the encouragement. But it doesn't help. Her appearance wasn't what was special for me. She thought like I do. She knew vengence, rage, pain, and strength. The pain will likely make me stronger one way or another(so I suppose that was really an act of love) one forum of which ichi was encouraging me to follow.


And the decision is hers to make IliaDN, I will not try to make her change her mind(she said such an effort is doomed to fail anyway). And finding someone else won't work, unless they also think like I do(very unlikely). Now I think I will read of Nietzche, maybe that will make me feel better.

Hmmm, I listening to Ich Hatt Einen Kameraden. I sent this song to her. She said she liked it.

[Kaiser of Arabia]

Pick up, move on. it's all you can do.

[discovery1]

Pick up, move on. it's all you can do.

Thanks Kaiser. That's good advice. Easier said than done though.

Wait a week. You'll see, you'll get over it. If I could count all the girls/women I have had complete crushes on it would take all day, but I got over ALL of them.

Really? A week doesn't seem like a very long time... But I will, eventually I guess. Not that I want her to mean nothing to me, but that probably is unlikely.

There's millions of people out there. You'll find someone like yourself again. And if you think about it college has a larger selection as well, there's bound to be someone you might like even more!

True. The university I'm going to has 10,000 freshmen, there must be at least one that thinks like I do right? Then again, the university would be reminder of her. I suppose I'd get over that too however.

You know man it could have been worse. You could have never met anyone you ever liked. That's my problem to be honest. I am incredibly picky like I imagine you are, but I haven't given up hope yet.

This is also true. Thank you for reminding me of this. And if it helps, I don't think that's a problem. I think it is best to be picky, since one is more likely to be in an emotionally fulfilling relationship. And you will find someone, and it will be worth the wait. And thanks bp. You've helped me alot.

[Byzantine Prince]

Wait a week. You'll see, you'll get over it. If I could count all the girls/women I have had complete crushes on it would take all day, but I got over ALL of them.

There's millions of people out there. You'll find someone like yourself again. And if you think about it college has a larger selection as well, there's bound to be someone you might like even more!

You know man it could have been worse. You could have never met anyone you ever liked. That's my problem to be honest. I am incredibly picky like I imagine you are, but I haven't given up hope yet.

[Samurai Waki]

I'm happy keeping with my occasional one-night stands... some of the managers have been refering to me as Quagmire lately (from Family Guy)

But seriously, HS relationships tend be fairly shallow... is it me, or are most girls/women walking hypocrits? They say one thing, do one thing, and then before you know it... do something completely opposite.

If what... one or two weeks went by... and she didn't call you (yes it should be the other way around also) then she really didn't want to be serious with you in the first place. Either that or she isn't very socialable.

[discovery1]

But seriously, HS relationships tend be fairly shallow... is it me, or are most girls/women walking hypocrits? They say one thing, do one thing, and then before you know it... do something completely opposite.

Maybe such flexibility is a strength.

If what... one or two weeks went by... and she didn't call you (yes it should be the other way around also) then she really didn't want to be serious with you in the first place. Either that or she isn't very socialable.

We did communicate rather often.

[Cygnus X-1]

Maybe such flexibility is a strength.

What?! 'Flexibility' is a strength for sure (on all accounts ), but hypocrisy and borderline deception is not! Personally, i'd much rather the women be as rational as the men i know...

And Wazikashi, i completely agree.

[Blodrast]

Different things work for different people. Some try to drown their sorrow in booze, some in a large number of women over a short period of time, some in more or less complete abstinence, some in moving away from people and the world, etc.
None are worse or better as a rule; they simply work better (and note better is very subjective) for different people.

So mostly, we can only really advise you from our own similar experiences (which makes perfect sense, of course); but keep in mind that what may work fine for us, may be different in your case; we're all a bit different (argh, I hate sounding so much like a preacher or a two-cents cheap-ass philosopher).

Anyway, give it a bit of time. These "old boyfriend/girlfriend" things honestly piss me off, but that's not really on-topic.
Another thing perhaps to keep in mind is that different people can fill different gaps in you in different ways: one may be an incredible sex partner, another one can be your best drinking buddy, yet another one may be your confidante, another to help you out with advice and life-deciding matters, like an older brother, and the list goes on.

I'm trying to say two things with this:
1. First, even though she may not become your gf, you can most likely keep in touch with her. Anything can happen over time: you may figure out that she's the woman of your life, or that she is not really as special as you first thought, or anything in between. Not only that, but she may also turn out to be very good company, or, like I was trying to say above, fill other kind of gaps in your life.

2. You can look for some of the things she may have been able to offer you in other places. You might be surprised at your findings once you look hard enough...

Did I say give it a bit of time?

good luck

[discovery1]

Now I'm so confused. She said that i'm a part of her that she loves but is trying to let go of because it's incompatible with the furture she plans for. I discourge yet encourage her violent tendencies. And if she drops the tendencies, then she will either change the nature of our relationship(ruining everything) or let go. And she doesn't want to make that decision. She says she doesn't want to lose me now. But if she doesn't drop that part of her then she will leave her boyfriend in hopes of being with me.

And I hate society. I really hate society.