Re: age and change?
when i was younger, throughout school - i fought every type of authority that i could. Parents, Church, teachers, government. i would kick and scream and fight for the sake of fighting. i was also described as an extremely paranoid child and young adult by psychiatrists.
In the past few years, i have become less hardened agaisnt things that i disagree with and changed some opinions, but i have also carried ideas from my youth with me. I have become more pro-government, less venomously anti-religious and more confused. I view people as misguided with no real purpose - so my paranoia has subsided considerably. My illusions of a well-orchestrated anything, much less conspiracy have slowly vanished, replaced by more realistic interpretations of events. Vilification of others has lessened, but Vilification of bad deeds has increased.
All in all - i am not sure of the direction, but i am sure that i have changed considerably from when i was a kid. I am more of a leader now, more confident in myself and less abrasive against authority - while being even more steadfast and altruistic in my sacrifices
less of a spineless lightweight id guess, but i pick my fights carefully
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