Quote Originally Posted by Byzantine Prince
I've tried talking to a professional. It really hasn't done anything for me. I find I am too complex. Plus I have a weird depression that sort comes and goes in waves, I'm never trulyl happy except when I am at the end of Thus Spoke Zarathustra, but that takes forever to read.
Do you have moments of extreme happiness between the bouts of depression? What your describing with comes and goes in waves - almost sounds like my wife's condition of bi-polar. She is what is termed a rapid cycler - she sometimes has up to three manic - severe depression espisodes a year.

http://www.bipolar.com/recog/bipolar...r-symptoms.htm

It took 6 different professionals before my wife found one that she could relate to and describe her depression to. So that is nothing unique - just because they are professional and a therapist does not make them a fit for every personal. I have found with my wife that mental health professionals and especially therapists sometimes focus on one type of counselling.