Well, i'm back. Sort of.

**Viking** · 03-27-2006, 21:56

That`s just...plain wrong to say, IMO.

**Evil_Maniac From Mars** · 03-27-2006, 22:38

Don't do it. You're still what, a teenager? Look. However bleak life is, it's not so bad as to warrant that. DO NOT DO IT! And pick up something else instead of cutting. Or use a popsicle stick, foam, something that won't penetrate. You'll still get to do it, but it won't hurt you.

I don't mean to be too harsh here, but suicide is STUPID! You have no idea how your adult life will turn out! For all you know, you could be a long lost cousin of the Royal Family or something...

**The_Doctor** · 03-27-2006, 22:52

Don't do anything like that. If you must hurt yourself, try bursting spots.

If you kill yourself, you cannot undo it, your gone forever.

And you will become a sad little statistic on a piece of paper or an advert.

It will be a waste of life and some unknown potential. You could do amazing things and change the world for the better.

**Papewaio** · 03-28-2006, 03:26

Originally Posted by evil_maniac from mars

For all you know, you could be a long lost cousin of the Royal Family or something...

Well for me that would be a reason to top myself.

Currywurry there is so much in the world to see and do. Really huge amounts to see and do.

It is annoying when you are younger and don't have the visible means to travel and do what you want. It is also upsetting not achieving goals that seem simple and at other times it is frustrating not having enough challenges worthy of sinking your teeth into.

However there is so many fantastic things that even little old I have seen. And there are tiny little moments in which I have found the beauty in while the rest of society have rushed by missing out on it.

If you are going to cause yourself pain, I suggest you do it by doing weights... you will feel it for days afterwards if you have not done them in a while. It burns, you can barely move a muscle, you move like an old man and the pain is almost constant... as is the endorphin rush.

Or take up long distance running, train to run a marathon then you will know pain. When you are coughing up your lungs, barely able to breath and about to vomit you will feel quite euphoric when you can take a deep breath again... and you will feel better about yourself. It is something that you can control. And if you can eat up the pain you can use it to your advantage. Learn to control one thing in your life and other things will just seem to fall into place around it.

**Zalmoxis** · 03-28-2006, 03:31

Welcome back. There are better ways to deal with depression than cutting yourself. Acts of violence against objects in your house, for example.

**Divinus Arma** · 03-28-2006, 03:35

Yikes. Tough topic. Especially so since a community member announced his suicide over his favorite forum elsewhere.

Always remember that it is not death you seek, but escape. You don't want to die, you want your pain to end. These are very different things. If your suffering could stop, would death seem as attractive? If you could choose to be happy, wouldn't you?

If you would rather be happy than die, you are already on the right path. Do not seek death. Seek escape from your pain.

There are many ways to do this. And it begins with you. A decision to change your life. It can be better. And if you make it so, then it will be better.

Best Wishes CW. The community is always here for you.

**Evil_Maniac From Mars** · 03-28-2006, 03:51

Originally Posted by Papewaio

Well for me that would be a reason to top myself.

Ok, may have been a bad example...how's this?:

For all you know, you could be German or something...

I remember the last time you came in here, you scoffed at the ideas of exercise and religion. I never tried serious religion, but exercise worked.

My idea. AND IT WORKED! For me at least.

**Reenk Roink** · 03-28-2006, 04:00

I don't have anything to say that hasn't been said by others, but add me to your concerned friends list...

**Uesugi Kenshin** · 03-28-2006, 04:07

Mikeus don't do it.

No matter how bad things get this is all you have. Go out take a run, do something. It will help. Committing suicide is just about the worst thing that you can do with your life, especially now when you are so young. Do anything to get your mind off of whatever is depressing you, or if you are just depressed find something to occupy your mind anyway.

I can't really say that your family will help, mine didn't really help when I was somewhat depressed, but , but if things have gotten this bad it is definately best if you talk to them about it.

Also don't be ashamed to go to someone else about this, or to go to a psychotherapist, psychiatrist, or therapist (there are small differences between them...).

Whatever you do don't kill yourself, and please stop hurting yourself. You will be missed no matter how worthless you feel now. People do care about you and value you.

**Samurai Waki** · 03-28-2006, 07:11

I know how you feel. Everyday the world gets a little darker, the blood in your veins turns to acid; the hatred, rage, and complete utter sadness are the only things you feel, coupled with the void you feel somewhere in your head. Its the warrior spirit mate, a blood lust, a passionate yearning to be somewhere else, or to transcend your physical being, because the life you had in this world is not the one you are meant for...
But, it is and you don't realize that yet. I fought myself day and night and day all over again for five years, because I knew in my heart at the time that things should be different. I had money, I had cars, I had girls but it was never enough to satiate my hunger. Having nothing and being young and depressed is the same as having everything and being young and depressed. Because you know in your mind that this is not the way and it never will be.

But, you grow older and if you defeat it, become stronger and wiser than you have ever been before. The lessons you are learning are the hardest you will ever take, because you are always walking the fine line between life and death and one slip could send you reeling into oblivion. Take the chance now to correct it, if you have rage punching something (not living) until your nuckles are swollen and bleeding will correct that, if you are sad no matter of happiness will ever be enough, turn that into guile and build yourself a fortune. If you are irritated read a book, or take up tailoring or something that takes a long time to do, and you will have learned patience. When you have done that for a long enough time, you will have killed yourself, but not the person you were planning on killing, the depression itself. And no matter what, wave after wave of misfortune and bad luck can never dissuade you, and depression will fuel your ambition. Those of us that do suffer from it and that have been to the very abyss of the human mind know that status quo is never good enough, you become something great, maybe for even one person, or not at all. It is your decision, be sure to choose wisely...

One more bit of advice I can give you: Never let yourself be silent.

**Kagemusha** · 03-28-2006, 18:36

Originally Posted by Wakizashi

I know how you feel. Everyday the world gets a little darker, the blood in your veins turns to acid; the hatred, rage, and complete utter sadness are the only things you feel, coupled with the void you feel somewhere in your head. Its the warrior spirit mate, a blood lust, a passionate yearning to be somewhere else, or to transcend your physical being, because the life you had in this world is not the one you are meant for...
But, it is and you don't realize that yet. I fought myself day and night and day all over again for five years, because I knew in my heart at the time that things should be different. I had money, I had cars, I had girls but it was never enough to satiate my hunger. Having nothing and being young and depressed is the same as having everything and being young and depressed. Because you know in your mind that this is not the way and it never will be.

But, you grow older and if you defeat it, become stronger and wiser than you have ever been before. The lessons you are learning are the hardest you will ever take, because you are always walking the fine line between life and death and one slip could send you reeling into oblivion. Take the chance now to correct it, if you have rage punching something (not living) until your nuckles are swollen and bleeding will correct that, if you are sad no matter of happiness will ever be enough, turn that into guile and build yourself a fortune. If you are irritated read a book, or take up tailoring or something that takes a long time to do, and you will have learned patience. When you have done that for a long enough time, you will have killed yourself, but not the person you were planning on killing, the depression itself. And no matter what, wave after wave of misfortune and bad luck can never dissuade you, and depression will fuel your ambition. Those of us that do suffer from it and that have been to the very abyss of the human mind know that status quo is never good enough, you become something great, maybe for even one person, or not at all. It is your decision, be sure to choose wisely...

One more bit of advice I can give you: Never let yourself be silent.

Wakizashi that is one of the best posts i have ever read on this Forum.