My friend, you're going to have to face the music and take the first step. You are going to have to get help. Period.

Talking to us is fine, but all we can do is offer long distance advice and sympathy. You are going to have to deal with this. You are going to have to talk to someone who can help fix this situation, and the situation can be fixed no matter what you think.

If you don't know what else to do, then walk into a hospital emergency room, today!, and tell them what's going on. Tell the doctor everything. Tell him you want and need help. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it. Start the ball rolling towards a new and better life.

Now, my friend, get off your ass and get some help. Feeling sorry for yourself and getting sympathy from others is all fine and dandy, but does nothing. Time to take the bull by the horns and deal with it. It's up to you to take the first step.

We're all looking forward to your next post where you tell us you did something positive.