Life is really an interesting thing. I have been more into life lately- I am very much a lurker now (although I continue to post, which I thought I would not... just very infrequently. I will probably stop for a while, just to see how it develops.) You can feel your emotions much more strongly when you are living your life.

Try this for a change, all who can: get a copy of the "Clockwork Orange" soundtrack, preferably on LP. Watching the movie a few times helps to build the right kind of associations with this music, ideally raw violence, brutal rape, government brainwashing, grotesque politicians who plan on instilling a totalitarian system, and the like. Then, sit down for a while with a glass of fine wine and just relax to the visions of red red kroova, a little in-out in-out, and poor poor Alex with his glazzies taped open, screaming in agony.