The vast estate stretched for miles. Levia sat straight in the saddle, watching the approaching group of riders. One of them wore a senator’s toga, while the others, 5 in total followed, speaking in pairs or trios, as the road allowed. The senator waived closer the man Levia recognised as Callimachus of Cyrene, a known philosopher, that was helping Luca fight his boredom and outbursts of anger with contemplation, rhetoric conversation, and military games, and that was now in the role of a scribe, with a roll of papyrus held over a firm leather support to help him write.
As the group approached, she could hear that Luca suggested getting the roads paved and widened so as to allow two carts or 5 mounts to pass through, while Callimachus suggested improving the water supply to the crops first, so that the land could be irrigated regularly.
“But once we build the roads, my dear Callimachus, will not that make the construction of irrigation easier?” I posed to the philosopher.
“Of course, Luca” he said “But you must think of the money you will spend before you can enjoy the benefits of this work.”
“Will I not be able to travel faster and more comfortably on paved roads than I do in this bog? And will that not make me happier than a few extra jugs of wine I sell?”
At this moment I saw her. Levia was just a few paces down the road, walking the horse ahead of the two Nubian guards. I had been so entangled in the conversation I did not raise my head at the next bend of the road, so we came very close before I noticed we were not alone. Of course the next few words Callimachus said were wasted.
“Make it happen, greek. And hold my horse.” I slid off the animal and walked towards Levia. Despite all the other women, she had always been special. She was the main reason I kept visiting my son in law in Ariminium and my son’s estates in Narbonensis. I could get wine much better than this from my own vineyards at Syracuse, but it is the sheer pleasure I saw on her face that made the journey worth the while.
“Well, it has been a long time, senator, since you last visited. Are those matters of state more important than me?” By Mars, I had missed her.
“The Gods have kept their servant busy. Besides, there were all those other women ahead of you. It is a long way from Rome.” I laughed. She came very close, slapped me, and then hugged me. “Well, maybe you have learned a thing or two from them.” And she kissed me.
I laughed again, and looked back at my retainers. Marcus Valentinius, was looking back, as if he could see something that behind us. “There are two horsemen following” he said.
The Nubians stared at me. I waved them to the sides of the road, and came closer to the side of the horse where my scabbard was. After what had happened in the Senate, that fool, our consul, had tried to get me poisoned twice, and a woman died because of it. My fist clenched in anger. After the dispute on the senate floor, I mean to leave the city immediately and retire from political life, but personal affairs that needed settlement and other issues concerning my position entertained me in Rome for longer than expected, and I heard news of the assassination by the consul. In the Senatorial building! No wonder the Gods do not smile upon the republic! Has he forgotten who put him in the senate in the first place? Has he forgotten whose money he is spending so lavishly?
A messenger from the Senate Speaker reached me the night before I was due to leave requesting me to attend an emergency session. I had my doubts, but attended anyway. I watched in silence the best of Rome: white togas, tanned skin, white hair, in the ghostly light of the torches, with the night outside – such was the fear of the Consular repression, that the Senate had assembled before dawn – all assembled to vote on the impeachment of the Consul, and his prosecution for treason.
Several voices had declared themselves supporters of the Consul, and I heard later that 4 of them had been assassinated that night, with the rest able to leave the city and taking the grim news with them. The motion had passed. Relief was notable, and the Senate Speaker was tasked with delivering the news to the Consul, who was campaigning in Iberia, with complete disregard for the voting procedure.
I could not stay in the city any longer, and the matter seemed closed, so I left.
…Levia was talking to me. I stared at her, still lost in the contemplation of past events, for a few more moments, before I could understand what she was saying.
“Senator, this man is an envoy from the Senate” she repeated. I breathed out, closed my eyes, opened again, and the world was in focus once more.
The priest, Servius, leaned closer from his mount “Sir, Mars will give you strength. Maybe we should take this matter somewhere more private.”
“Servius, this is no matter for you, I said, but I will take the message from the Republic.”
The messenger gave me the papyrus roll, intricately bound and stamped. “Will there be a reply, sir?” he inquired.
“I cannot know until I read it, can I?” I was growing irritated. “You will get my reply tomorrow.”
That night was a sleepless one. Levia was long asleep, but I was in my working room, with the models of the ballistae, walls, and other military and civilian buildings, among them an unfinished water mill I was considering installing in Syracuse. They had been built by Valentinius, Callimachus and myself during the days of bad weather of which there had been surprisingly many. The table was covered in papers. Mostly there were accounts, but also plans, tax returns, and I knew somewhere there was also a translation of Alexander’s campaigns I have been meaning to read for almost a year now, and kept carrying with me everywhere I went.
At the top of the pile the senatorial message. Civil war had broken out. Senators and armies were taking sides. And the Senate wished to know if I was with them or against them. In fact, as far as I remembered, I was the closest commander to Rome, and if I could seize the city, whichever part I aligned with would be almost half way closer to winning the war.
I paced the room again, and again. “Wine!” I shouted into the darkness, and a minute later an arm pushed a cup into my hand. I put it on the table, and sat, with my head between my hands, applying pressure to my temples to silence the voices.
The dancing light of the torches and oil lamps reflected in the gold and the stones of the cup, and made the red wine look like blood and smoke. I felt the old forgotten feeling rising. It was the same feeling you had when you stood under enemy fire, and the arrows obscured the sky, and you had to stand tall, shield up and take it, and despite everything there was nothing you could do until the arrow fell. And life could last just as long as it took the arrow to come down, but never shorter, and you wished the damn shaft would fall already so you could live or die, but get out of that suspended, expectant state.
10 years of military service. 10 years! Since I was tribune at 25, the most promising officer of my generation, until I wasted my youth and my life in bleak governorships, mistresses, temples and races. I was sorry for myself. I was so far beyond redemption it was pointless to even pretend I was the man I used to be, and the man I had hoped I’d be.
The opportunity was mine for the taking. I could lose myself completely, seize Rome, rule in my own name, not in the name of the Senate – too weak to withstand one man’s ambitions - or the Consul – a man I would kill if I saw in the street -.
I fell asleep.
Two strong arms were shaking me. “Master! Master! You must wake up! Fire!” I opened my eyes, and there was a nubian shaking me, and Callimachus holding the door.
“Quickly, leave the building! We will all burn!” I ran, followed by my retainers, through the corridors and patios, with the smell of burnt wood and oils in the air, and the smell of something else. I had smelt that before. It was burned flesh. I turned back. “Where is Levia?” “Where?” Callimachus and the Nubian pushed me out to the street, where all the inhabitants were gathering. “Levia!” I shouted over and over, with no answer.
I sank on to the paved courtyard. She was asleep on my bed which is where the fire started.
A group of Nubians approached, dragging a man in a slave’s tunic. “Sir! We caught him trying to escape through the servants’ quarters! This is the man who started the fire!”
I think I went white with rage, because the Nubians stepped back. I came close to this man. He smelled of cheap wine, and oil, and smoke. “Who do you work for?” I asked in a low voice. I was mad with rage, so mad, it made me lucid, and calm, with everything boiling in the inside, capable of anything.
The man was mute. “Torch!” I turned to the nearest man. It was Valentinius. I didn’t look at him. I stared at the man the Nubians held. “Torch, sir”. I turned around to take it.
I looked at my arm and then slowly moved the torch closer and closer, until the hairs burnt, and the skin began to break, and the smell of my own burnt flesh was in the air. I held it for a few interminable seconds. I didn’t feel the pain. I stared at the man who could not take his eyes from my burnt forearm, and the torch, and the wound that was becoming bigger. Finally I dropped the torch and then held my arm close to the man’s face. “If I do this to myself.” I paused “Imagine what I will do to you.” I said in the same low voice. The Nubians holding him were afraid, I knew it. The man opened his mouth. “It was Servius Aemilius” he mumbled.
I turned to my servants. “A horse, armour.” “Oil for my arm” “Callimachus, give the order to assemble my men.” One of the Nubians asked “Sir, what do we do with him?” I looked at the man. “Burn him.”
Callimachus was startled. “Where are we going, sir?”
The die was cast. The Gods had pushed my in one direction only. I would stand with the Senate and against the Consul.
“Rome.”
Next morning was grim. I was lost in my thoughts and my misery, and forgot to set up camp, and rest, and the soldiers were not happy. Towards noon, after having marched for hours, Callimachus suggested a stop. I assembled the centurions and ordered to rest.
The next stop would be Ariminium, where my son-in-law, Appius Egnatius was governor. I set off to walk around the camp. I could not sit still. Activity was the only drug that kept me from thinking.
A few hours later, Valentinius found me sitting beside one of the camp fires. He sat beside me. “I have news” he said. “Bad news.”
I looked at my friend. “There seem to be plenty of those.”
“Egnatius has locked the city. He received envoys from the Consul and now will support him. I don’t know if…”
“Enough” I interrupted. We must beat him to Rome.
“Muster all my cavalry. We will go ahead of the infantry and try to hold the mountain and river passes until the main army can reach Ariminium and lay siege to it. Recruit mercenaries to bolster my force if necessary.”
He nodded.
“Tell the centurions to pack. We are leaving immediately.” He nodded again.
“By the way, there is no fleet nearby that could take us to Rome, is there?”
“I’ll find out” he said. Then he turned and walked into the darkness.
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