I don't like to look up such information or ask people, but rather discover it personally. Books and such, PAH! Still, I'd like to know if anybody here can tell me anything about spirituality, of course excluding "spirituality" regarding religion, 'cause I find it uninteresting and dare I say it's probably even PHONY.

Nay, I talk about SPIRITUALITY, not some belief based on some dogma invented by power-hungry humans who exercise control, gain respect from believing fools, and so on, but the TRUE SHIZ.


I thought I knew what spirituality is,
though it's been kinda too long ago. I thought/think I've experienced it some years ago for a long time on and off.

It appears to me to be a state of being wherein one is, and simultaneously is not. It is like a disconnection from the "physical world."

It is as if everything is nothing. It is like all of the world's variables' values are set to null. They are therefore there, but since they are null they're not really there, though they are, but not really.

It is to be and to simultaneously not be. Nothing is, yet nothing is still something. You are not, yet you know you are not, therefore you are...?

Somehow -- don't ask, I don't know how the hell I did it, though I remember it happened -- I used to have the ability to "go into this mode" at will, and what I sensed was... beautiful. This kind of state of being was strange, beautiful, ugly, enlightening, dark, light, constant, heavy, soft, smooth, detached. It's almost unexplainable.

(I speculate it also might involve in some cases a certain foregoing and/or active state of trying to reach truth, wisdom, and detachment of emotion, passion, and desires.)


That is what I think spirituality is, and I never did drugs if anyone thought about that.



Now I want to know if anybody can honestly and truthfully confirm that something like that is spirituality, or maybe it's about rare natural-physical effects of the human entity, being, reserved for those sensitive to it, etc., which "is to be called spirituality," if ya dig what I'm sayin' (though then the bottom line would still be spirituality, no matter the two possibilities mentioned).

I still do not know what spirituality is, or maybe I do but don't know I do. But I hope somebody who really knows for sure what it is can tell me.