I awoke this morning rather distraught about the current direction my life has been heading in. I am still attending college, but with this Summer Vacation I'm finding myself having more and more time to myself, and even though the twins have been a hassle; Mrs. Waki seems to have the situation handled well enough for me to have some extra time. Now keep in mind, I DO share my part in raising the little Hooligans, but it is little and not extremely consequential that I be there for every moment. This has left me with just a tad too much time on my hands, and I'm feeling like I'm missing out on some quintessential parts of being myself and at peace with who I am and how life has directed me. I'm split between three different paths at the moment, I could actually go out and find A JOB... but I'm very well off at this time and juncture, and the simplicity in and of itself makes the entire ordeal of being dependable for people I don't know or really much care about entirely exacerbating if the Home front were to cave in and I needed to give a nudge in one direction or another. The other (much more appealing) Directions are to learn a musical instrument on my off time, I understand reading music, and indeed WANT to learn an instrument of some sort or another but at the moment I am completely split between learning the Violin or learning the Tin Whistle (I think the Guitar, Bass, Drums, et al are overdone) so I wanted to learn something that has little appreciation but takes time and a lot of effort to learn. I think this would help me immensely in keeping harmony with my inner self (I had a job offer from the Marine Corps. today that I turned down in lieu of knowing that my arms and legs would have been dismembered from my torso if Ms. Waki would've found out that I even said I was interested in). Basically all I want is to fill the gap I feel I am missing, I'm drinking a wee too much lately, and I want to feel like the walls aren't closing in any one direction, but expanding. If anyone wants to give any ounce of advice I'd like to hear their opinions...

Thanks Gentlemen (and the dedicated Ladies),

Wakizashi,