Urgggg, burn't out

[Budwise]

I tried, I really tried to start up a campaign and play this weekend as the Rebels again but I just was so burned out of this game that I couldn't continue. I am so sorry, it just seems more fun to check the messages here than to actually play the game anymore.

Pizzaguy, you no longer type huh? I haven't been on for a while but I don't really see your name anywhere anymore.

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Personal life -
I can't believe this .

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The girl my age I liked at work got married in her home country and is awaiting her husband to come over to the US, she knows that this will take years so she wanted to go out "As Friend" - for anyone who isn't a dork, we all know what that leads too and I am faithful so I "on accident" scared her off by being so tired from the second and first jobs and lack of sleep.

My girlfriend is coming around now that she realise that I could have had that girl my age and shes acting better. I though she cheated one night and although I am not 100 percent sure she didn't, I have to believe her because shes really not that type of person. So, besides that I am just annoyed with myself that I killed one potential person on being closer and my girlfriend and I are, although doing better, still in an Urggg mode.

OH OH OH, I forgot the absolutely BEST feature of my dismil life right now. I went to see my son for the first time in a while due to my Exgirlfriend being a nut and won't let me see him due to her being her, also when I am around him she won't shut up. Well, after watching her get evicted and not paying anything (I am not court ordered to pay child support and she never lets me take my son so after two years, I stopped paying) and offering money as bait, I was able to take my son for a few hours and low and behold, my only son has Autism. Its always a great feeling to see the one thing you care about struggling for life and to grasp knowledge I don't believe he understands. He doesn't talk at all and hes 4 and not pottytraned yet. Breaks my heart greatly. It sucks so bad to see your child not being normal and their is no greater sorrow one person can suffer. Honestly, not speaking selfishly but I would have perfered him to die one night to sids then to see him suffer his whole life to Autism