Dear Pizzaguy (Bad news today) and forum board

[Budwise]

Weird question.

She claims that her boyfriend and her think that me having sex with her still isn't a big deal because I was with her first, I really don't miss living with her that much and the idea makes the breakup seem easier as long as I came first after the shower due to him cheating with her for a while and if he had something I would have it now too, any comments? My opinion is that this a-hole knew I was with her and slept with her anyways, payback is a bitch.

I asked her to leave him and she said never but I asked if I could help with that girl in Vietnam and she said I have a 1% chance if I change to, in her words, not be so crazy. I acted a little irrational I admit to prevent her in becoming what we called a "slut person" - her words and she became one anyways. And shes mad about me dirtying up her best drycleaned Cambodian dresses, killing her garden, and making a huge mess in my old room when I FOUND OUT SHES BEEN CHEATING WHEN I SAW HER WITH THE GUY.

She says that their is 100% NO CHANCE of fixing our problem and we are done forever. She says she wants to still be my friend but if this guy dies, she still won't be with me. That hurt. THe times have been hard, I admit but now that shes about to lose the house because I am not there to work the second job and she had to quit and TIMES ARE GETTING BETTER, she leaves me for this a-hole.

She tells me she loves him and he loves her but its only been a month. I will find out tomorrow for sure because if we do have sex and she still says it after she gets there a few times, we will see - thats when she usually loved me the most.

I could really use the feedback this time, I thought I was over her today but when I found out she felt bad because that a-hole didn't contact her all day long, I got back to crying on the phone again at 2:30am.