Okay, this is just something that I really need to vent on. This is something that's been bugging me for the last couple weeks, ever since our U.S. holiday of Thanksgiving. During the few days before, of, and after Thanksgiving, I was always being bombarded with the idea of being thankful. That I should be thankful to live in a home. Be thankful that I have the opportunity to go to a University. Listening to others talk about all of the things they were thankful for. And so on. Yet, whenever I reflected on all of it, I realized something. I wasn't thankful. I knew that I should be. Yet, deep down, I just didn't feel thankful for anything. And its bothering me. I feel like there's something just not quite right with me, because I know that I should be thankful for being given what I'm given, and yet, I do not feel thankful. And really, I don't have an excuse. I've worked in soup kitchens, I've helped feed homeless people, and contributed time and money to helping those less fortunate than myself. And yet, I never got any sense of satisfaction from helping people, it just felt like something I was supposed to do. Even after my experiences in seeing those who are born with less, or fall on very difficult times, I still do not feel thankful for anything. I dunno, its just this has been something that's been bothering me, the fact that I honestly cannot remember the last time I've ever felt actually thankful for anything or anyone. Relief, sure. But honest to goodness thankfulness? Nope.