Well, you did say...

Quote Originally Posted by Bijo
Very hazardous poison: women, a woman's cruelty, love. Once it enters your system, it is difficult to remove. It aches and aches, and there seems to be no cure, except more poison. And this external poison to battle the internal poison is still dangerous, as it might enter your system too/instead.

When a woman leaves, it is like she's part of you and she takes it away. It makes functioning extremely difficult. At this moment I see no reason to exist, and in any case I'd see no reason to exist, but this.... this is plain cruelty. This is poison. This is pain. This is a woman's cruelty.
so I extrapolated a little. Sorry if it went the wrong way.

But my point still stands. If you try to switch off your emotion when you feel unhappy, you're really just bottling up your unhappiness. Even if you still let the love through, that's not happy. I hate to say it, because I know how much it hurts to do it, but the best thing to do is feel the pain, to understand and work through it. If we never taste the bitter herbs, we will never appreciate the honey.

Anyway, maybe you should find a woman who is on her own philosophical pathway. It might work out better. Not to mention a woman who is honestly good, which isn't impossible; it just seems like it sometimes.