Are you in love with someone?

[Omanes Alexandrapolites]

My courting efforts didn't quite go to plan.

Last week, on an evening in with a few friends, I mentioned my said attraction to the individual. Somehow, this managed to get to the person. Initially they didn't seem impressed, even though I did deny it, although later on that seemed to change into the said encouraging glances. Also, in the past, whenever I had commented on the current relationship, they never responded and almost went into a trance. This could mean many things, but I interpreted it as doubt.

I've liked this person for almost seven months. I've never said anything though due to them already being in a relationship and the fact that they simply are a little out of my league. These reactions influenced me to give it a try, so, following my instincts I did.

Further on in the week, it seemed to be forgotten about though, so I asked a couple of the guys in the office to mention it in passing conversation. The person would then be reminded of my feelings for them and would then be encouraged to make a move if they wanted to. I'm not a very confident person, so I always either ask somebody else to do my dirty work for me, or encourage the person I like to act instead.

They forgot to mention it to the target and, due to this, my plan did not really work. As before, it was still forgotten about on the Monday morning. I reminded them that they had not mentioned it to the individual - they claimed to have forgotten entirely.

Regardless of this, they immaturely nagged me about it all morning and, by chance, the person happened to walk past, and heard it all.

As you may expect, they confronted me and, quite abruptly, told me they were in no way interested and they had their existing partner already. I then enquired as to if they were not with their current partner if they may be attracted to me. The answer was a resounding no - I simply wasn't their type. I asked the person if they were planning on telling their lover, not a very friendly person, of my feelings for them. This answer was a yes.

They then left the area, and returned to their portion of the room. Of course this could have been due to the presence of others, but I somehow doubt it due to the strength of their response.

Now I've just got to face up to their current partner. Presumably this will occur tomorrow.

I suppose this is a nicer response from the initial person than my last attempt though - "[insert bad language here] and die" is not really a very nice way of turning down a date. I suppose I deserved it though - it was the second attempt in the timespan of two weeks.

Perhaps in the future I will encounter fewer cases of unrequited feelings. All the attempts I have ever made of forming a relationship with an individual have never even got started, never mind actually gone anywhere. I really thought there might be a chance this time around - clearly not. On occasions I doubt my life is ever going to go anywhere when it comes to romantic affairs.