I can deal with it being my fault, it's the fact that as i explained earlier, it's like a part of me has been lost.
I guess that in most cases of suicide, there are always plenty of people who feel guilty because they think that they shouldn't have said this or that, or should have seen it coming. It's all hindsight.

Joe is gone, continuing to mourn him all the time isn't going to bring him back and neither will drinking. I can only underline what other people here have said...go out, and make new friends.