Look, ignore it, it's the best way. I know it seems like an eternity, but trust me, 5 years goes by so fast, and then you're free.
Believe me, suicide should NEVER be an option. What will it achieve? yes, short term wins, but who knows, you could turn out to be something special. Kurt Cobain tried to kill himself aged 13, and life turned out all right for him. Barrack obama had a pretty shitty childhood, so you could literally go anywhere. you have your whole life ahead of you.

Don't throw it away, as that would be STUPID.