I can't honestly say that I'm taking it extremely well, it's still like taking a hard punch to the jaw, it just so happens that I'm not so easy to take down. I've been depressed and angry the last couple of days, but we've opened up dialogue with each other on how we're going to handle it, it's still a lot of emotions jumbled up together, both her's and mine so we're counseling each other as best we can through it. Not too mention paranoia is still nagging at me, which is driving my anger and depression into further depths, and I don't think I'll be completely relieved until I get a full DNA test right after the birth. I've explained this too her, that it's in no way her fault for me being this way, its just six months...six months, what if she hasn't been completely honest or faithful? It's not that I don't trust her, I trust her almost implicitly, but I do suffer from paranoia disorder, and it's like even though I've locked out those feelings of distrust, it's still like they're knocking on the door and telling me to be careful. You pour everything you have into the relationship emotional wise, and you don't want to be dissapointed, sometimes you want to try and ignore the voices nagging at you in your head, but I'm someone who would rather hear the truth and be destroyed by it, then be suspicious of her and the child for the rest of my life.