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[Megas Methuselah]

The tricker question then, from reading your post, you dont seem very happy with life. Are you sure she doesnt just remind you of a time when you were happier, rather than her being the reason you were happy?

This is a tough question to answer. It stayed in my mind as I was going over the thread, until I found this post:

[In reply to Shibumi's post]

What this man said. Either it's the above or regret. Or both.

I have a lot of regrets from the past, especially with this girl. And the way we looked at each other on that summer day, she expected me to talk to her. She wanted me to. But I walked away, man! And now I can't get her off my mind...



I've been putting a lot of thought into this, and this is what I've got so far: when I met her, I was a boy becoming a man. But as a teenager, I had no father figures to look to; becoming a man, and not just a man, but an indian man in an indian family with all of our indian problems, was... very difficult, frustrating, and heart-breaking. I'm sure many of you realized that, seeing as how I used the Org for the past years to dump out all the emotions balled up in my bitter heart. But I am now a man. This doesn't mean I know everything in life (on the contrary, I am always learning), but it does mean that I've emotionally matured over the past several years. One of the things I thought I left behind was cowardice. Acting as I did with her this past summer was... unlike me. And I think that sending her a short e-mail along the lines of "hey -her name-, it's -my name-. If you can, call me sometime at -phone number-. Thanks." (btw, does that sound ok?) At least this way, I think I might be able to rest in peace with the knowledge that I tried.

But as it is now, I always felt that we had unfinished business. We were probably both too young to deal with what we felt. And I'm thinking we could maybe pick up where we left off. At the very least, I might be able to hear her sweet voice again. And this hopefully won't be another action added to my already-heavy burden of regrets.

Give me some feedback.