Aye that I have CR, aside from the light of goodness thing and the weeping. And in person last night, as well as a huge text. I tried to explain but the right words dont really come out at the right time.

Its weird to think that the band thing would help, but her main venue for expressing herself is through music, and they are her absolute favorite band. she saw them a few weeks ago and literally for days after she could've been punched in the face and still be the happiest girl in the world. There's not much that I can do for her, or maybe I'm not imaginative enough. But I feel like it would at least open her up to understanding and forgiving me. It's more than just a "signed thing" really.