I have big problems; please help me.

[Kagemusha]

John. Im glad to see that you did nothing you could not regret ever as death is a final solution to a temporary problem like Don said in his post before. If you die. You can never taste anymore your favourite foods. You cant enjoy a lazy weekend morning or do anything you like. Death prevents you from doing anything, while life gives you opportunities to do anything you want eventually in certain limits.

It seems that you are a smart young man and there are many things for you in the future that life can offer to you. School can be a drag specially if you feel that most of lessons are too easy. But if you look at that from another point of view, that shows that you are smart. So basically you can achieve good results with less effort then many. You should use that gift to your benefit and educate yourself so that adulthood wont become a struggle for you and that you can get things you want. Taking care of school is for you like investing to your future.

We are social species and if you feel lonely, best way to find friends is to look out for people who have same interests then you have. With such people. You have already something in common, so making friends should be more easy. If and when a bad moment comes, when you feel desperate. Think of the little nice things. From those little things happines is constructed. Thinking of large and complicated issues usually just makes you depressed. Sometimes in my own life i have not had anything else to be happy about then the scent in the air after it has rained. But that was enough for me at that moment.

Life is like a house built of bricks. You cant make it complete without masoning each brick one at the time. Best of luck to you.